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so friday morning, i just get out of my first class. i decide, i'm really sleepy, i'm gonna go to the coffee shop so i can get my daily dose of caffeine. i walk in, my boss sees me and says, "some woman called for you. she didn't leave a message though." thinking it was probably people from the loan institution i've been conversing with for the last month,i take a look at my cell phone, and lo and behold, i have a message. i check the message, and it happens to be the school representative i've been talking to from The Institute of Culinary Education, located in Manhattan. she says, ahem, " hi edie, this is alisa from the Institute of Culinary Education. i just wanted to call and tell you that all the paperwork went through, i'm going to put your starting date with us as september 5th, but if you want to start on october 3rd, just give us a call. congratulations!!!!!"
happiness? terrified? scared? surprise? shock? nervous? bliss?
all of the above and then some.
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| what skipping class does to me....... |
[14 Apr 2006|10:07am] |
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sure it makes me even more lazy than i really am, but it also gets me thinking about everything and anything. here it is, 10 am on a friday morning, and i'm looking out my window and it's raining. what happened to the beautiful sun yesterday? it put me in such a great mood!
lately, i've been thinking a lot about what's going to happen after graduating and leaving santa cruz.... i have to say, before i was extremely hesitant to leave this place and the people that i've met here behind..... to have to go home and re-adjust my life once again. however, this was at the beginning of the school year, and since then, so much has happened and i've had many occassions to think about what it truly means to leave santa cruz. i've come to the conclusion that although i love this place dearly, i am looking forward to what lies ahead for me in my future. i've been looking forward to going to culinary school pretty much all my life, and i guess the possibility that it could actually happen scares me! there was always something else- you know, growing up, going to high school, then college..... and culinary school was this sort of dream.... and it was easier to dream it because in your dreams it's so much easier to succeed. but now i have no more excuses, and i've finally gotten my shit together and started applying to a few schools in new york and a few in southern california, and even one in san francisco.( crosses her fingers for the one in NY) sure, i'm scared as hell.... scared of failure, scared of moving to a new place and not knowing anybody, scared of leaving my family even. isn't that funny? i've complained about them for so long, resented them for my childhood and teenage years and everything, yet i'm terrified of leaving them.
i've also been thinking a lot about the people i've met here in santa cruz....the friendships and connections i've established with all sorts of people. some friendships have become stronger.... others have weakened. there are people who i don't even talk to anymore, people who i used to be extremely close with but now know nothing about them, and vice versa. what happened? i want to know how people can put such faith and energy and time into building friendships, then just let it slowly deteriorate. when did it become such a burden to just hang out and talk, or go out and do something fun together? when did it become okay to start blowing ''friends'' off? i guess if anything, there is one constant in life: things change. people change. people outgrow one another, and it sucks, but sometimes it's nothing that can be helped..... other times, there probably is something one can do about it, it's just a matter of if they're willing to do that something. who knows? maybe that is the true test of friendship..... after weathering all the storms, you're still there for one another. kinda like a real relationship, without the sex =). so, maybe i'll still be speaking to some of you guys in 10 years...... maybe not...i guess only time will tell. in the meantime, i will leave you all with an excerpt of an amusing conversation i had with a friend from back home. =)
me: geez, i wonder sometimes how we're still friends.
cristina: we were friends in high school.
me: so?
cristina: well, we knew each other at our dorkiest and most awkward stage in life, and the fact that we're still friends with each other now after all that, well, it's an accomplishment.
me: hahahhaa...... who says you're not dorky now?
cristina: hey, it takes one to know one, buddy.
me: fuck you!
cristina: hehehehehe
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| as in the words of kimmie..... |
[21 Oct 2005|09:21pm] |
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doodeedoo....
it's friday night and i'm keeping the wu-ster company in the hughes undergraduate research lab..... or something like that. it's quiet in here.... i think i'd go crazy if i was by myself. all you can hear is the droning or what sounds like an air conditioner, as well as what sounds like a hampster wheel. k-wu is conducting some sort of experiment, and for fear that i'll knock something over and cause something to mutate, i found the nearest computer available to update.
what to say? it's my last year here at good ol UCSC ( i hope) i want to go to london next fall for a quarter, but only if i can get my grades up. today was a bad day in french class. the ONE time i didn't do my hw or was prepared for class, the man decides to call on me multiple times AND collect the hw. bastard. this was supposed to be my easy A! now i actually have to work at it because he never has tests, just quizzes, and i hope to god he has more because i'm getting that A damnit. hmmmm, alo taking sundanese gamelan, which is fun because i get to play the gong. teehee.
went to las vegas last weekend with a bunch of folks, and turned out to be pretty fun! didn't see any famous people, but we walked, danced, bought tons of crap that we didn't need, and ate great food. ( the WYNN people, the WYNN!) somer people are giving me the notion that they are alcoholics coughcolincough and should work on that..... hehehhe.
might go to NY for a week with the nancy over winter break..... really really want to. i saved up enough money over break, so i should be able to.... wonder what the rents will say. i'll probably bring it up this weekend when they come over for my bday. 22 already?! shit, i need to do so much crap. like get a job and be able to survive on my own..... hmmmm....i feel the panic attack already! eeek!
okay i hear the wu-ster cleaning up.....stay tuned for more of edie's journal. til next time.
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| edie's favorite things...... |
[05 Jun 2005|02:41pm] |
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because i want to and i don't want to study......
Not because you have to, but because you WANT to! Things you enjoy, even when no one around you wants to go out and play. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level? Make a list, post it to your journal... and then tag 5 friends and ask them to post it to theirs.....
1)daydreaming
2)dreaming about how i'm going to become a famous chef and own the best restaurant and bed and breakfast.
3) making a list of all the countries/places me and kimmie are going to visit/live in when we grow older. i.e. england, greece, italy, france, thailand, austria, australia, new zealand, japan, china, prague, russia, sweden, switzerland, spain, egypt, south africa, ireland, scotland, hawaii, norway, finland, south america, EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!!
4) laying outside on the sofa with a blanket watching foreign movies, or movies in general.
5) laughing. a lot.
6) cooking of course!
7) making fun of melisa and kimmie. and anyone who deserves it. i.e. nancy.......=)
8) potlucks and get togethers.
9) dressing up and looking nice and pretty for no reason.
10) talking about boys!!!!!! blue jay!!!!!
11) reading a good book when it's raining outside and having a nice cup of hot chocolate.
12) taking a walk in the woods when it's cold and misty, and thinking about random things.
13)playing stupid computer games, getting addicted to them, and then discarding them, only to find a new computer game to get addicted to.
14) singing out loud and off-key and dancing like a goob when no one is looking.
15) taking a long, hot shower after a hard day's work.
16) stevenson coffee house. the best place on earth to work.=)
17) listening to babies/little kids laugh.
18) cuddling.
19) making out.
20) waking up early on the weekends, and then realizing it's the weekend so you can go back to sleep.
21) going on random trips to san francisco and san jose, while singing along to disney songs that mel has compiled.
22) eating really good food when i'm hungry.
23) talking for hours about everything to my dearest friends....kimmie, melisa, kristi, sj, cristina, vignette, and if i forgot any of you you know who you are.
24) making people smile and laugh out loud=)
i'm sure there are so many more things i enjoy, but i figured i needed to stop or else i'd never get any work done. i tag: ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) microscopic, natasha3, and anyone else who wants to do this. have fun. teehee.
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| edie procrastinating means more updates for you! |
[25 May 2005|01:22pm] |
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so, i'm aimlessly studying for my econ 180 midterm, economics of labor. i don't think i'll do too terribly, considering i just really need to know key concepts, and there are only 9. over the course of 24 hours, while i've been trying to study and write my paper ( which thankfully is done) i also managed to make croissants! woooooo! i also made pain au chocolate, which for those of you who don't know, is basically croissants with chocolate. it was fun! i stayed up making them while finishing my paper. =)
in other news, it's week 9 ( week 9!) and summer is approaching. in the course of the next 2 weeks, i will find out if i will either pass all my classes, pass most of my classes, or fail miserably. i'm hoping to god it's not the last one. then i'll be here in sc for the entire summer, wating away with the merrill work crew, so be sure to hit me up people. i'm sure i'll be bored and have nothing to do, unless of course i need to take summer classes.
going on a workout date with vignette today after class. =) life, so far, is not too bad.
ps- kimmie needs to stop having weird dreams because seriously, they start rubbing off on me.
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| weekends are what keep me sane.... |
[22 May 2005|11:26pm] |
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so it's been a while since i've updated, and this weekend was crazy good. got to see star wars with the k-wu, melisa, lauren, seth, kristen, tim, and anthony. such a fantastic movie, including all those cheesy lines..... case in point: "do you think it's because i love you?.... oh no, no, it's because IIII love YOUUUU.... NOOOO it's because IIII love youuuuu....." and so forth. let's not forget that yoda, for the little green dude that he is, kicks ass.
then, nancy's bday on saturday, which was pretty great because she LOVED her gift from all of us ( yay!) and ever since playing around with it, i want a palm pilot now too! hahaha. it was pretty cool, i only got to see it online, but it looked even better when we saw the real thing. i'm still a little upset that a mister frick wasn't at the dinner of course, he needs a good ass-whuppin. =) seriously! it's your girlfriend's bday! you SHOULD GO NO MATTER WHAT. EVER IF IT WAS FOR LIKE 15 MINUTES. he may have redeemed himself with her afterwards when he came to visit her on campus, but pshh, as nancy's friend, come on dude, you owe her! but she seemed to have a lot of fun. played poker with everyone , then valley fair mall on sunday with stacy and jon, who was such a good sport for driving. and we had pho and bought vietnamese sandwhiches! woo! yay for asian food that santa cruz lacks.
next weekend we're all going to sf for a day.... home sweet home=) i haven't been there since..... damn, i can't even remember. rock climbing, indian food, amoeba records, chinatown and japantown, here we come. =0
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[02 May 2005|11:13pm] |
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so, i'm going to a wedding this mother's day weekend..... and at first i was all excited about it because i haven't been to a wedding in a really long time. plus, it's one of my sister's best friends. we all grew up together, despite the age difference, and now that she's 29 she's getting married!!!!!! anyways..... when i arrived home today from work i received an email from her. she said, '' btw, i have a friend who is interested in meeting you.... he'd really like to talk to you at the brunch the day after the wedding.''
WTF!!!! i feel like i'm being set up on a blind date! this is too weird. now, i was all excited about going to this wedding, now i'm starting to freak out! i have nothing to wear! i need to buy something that i would look hot in! anyone have time this week to possibly go shopping at capitola or something?! i need hot momma clothes! help! i wonder what he looks like.... and what the hell has michelle been saying to him to make him want to meet me.... unless she made me sound super cool so he'd go for me. good lord. this should be interesting.....
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| midterms and more fun |
[20 Apr 2005|01:59am] |
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after a brief stay in breezy florida, it's back to reality. this week, my reality consists of two midterms, and next week, it shall consist of one. not to mention work in between. ugh! why am i a business management econ major again?! on a more positive note, i have now become one of the new assistant managers at stevenson coffee house! woot! it's so much easier going to work knowing you're getting paid more. i was making crap ( 6.85), and i didn't mind all that much because the people and the atmosphere are great. however getting paid more is a definite plus. plus i feel all important now that i get my own set of keys. =)
just watched a video of what happened during the "tent univesity" riot. crazy. just a while ago me, melisa, and kimmie were studying and all of a sudden heard sirens and some form of shooting... don't think they were bullets though. i'm actually a bit indifferent on the whole situation. i'm sure if i paid more attention or if it affected me directly, i'd probably care a lot more. not that i'm saying it's not important, it definitely is, it's just not one of my top priorities right now. as lovely as sleeping on the cold, hard ground and being woken up by a mob of cops throwing tear gas as well as dragging bodies into cars sounds, i'm much more worried about passing all my classes this quarter so i don't fail out of college just yet. but more power to ya'll who believe in something so much that you'd get arrested for it. maybe i'll join you someday.
the new pope looks scary. he looks like chucky, and he was a former nazi?! we're doomed.
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hahahahahahaah..... it kinda does look like me....
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| the most stressful week ever...... |
[01 Mar 2005|11:52pm] |
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as nancy would say...."good lord!" sigh. i'm so drained. now i know how kimmie feels every time banquet rolls around and she has to do everything at once. except all i really do is help out with the little things, like paint and fetch things here and there. oh, and make cake for people, hehehe. but no, seriously, kimmie is wonderwoman- not only does she have to sell tickets, she has to be good treasurer woman and keep track of budget, go to core meetings, and do skit! plus, she did all the frikkin searching for props and things.... much props, wu the kim! =)
anyways, back to me. so tired! two midterms this week, which is insane because the idea of a midterm is to only have ONE in each class, and then a final. of course, i'm very happy that we have these midterms, or else i would seriously fail all my classes. except i think i'm headed towards that direction in my computer programming class. i swear, i am the most computer illiterate person in the world. sure, i can write emails and operate word and search the net, but i know jack shit about programming. it's like a totally different language! i never understand what the hell i'm typing/writing in that class. the only good thing is the fact that even though i failed the second midterm (and i really did fail, i probably got the lowest score in the class) my prof isn't going to count it. why, you may ask? because out of the two midterms and the final for the class, he's making one optional. so, i just need to do a decent job on the final. which may turn out to be more of a hassle than anything..... anyone wanna tutor me? please? i kid you not, i am the biggest dumbass when it comes to these things. please help!
now, i also have a calculus midterm tomorrow, which just happens to be my longest day. thank god i am not going into work tomorrow, or else i think i'd die. i'm going to have to skip lab however, and then pop into section so i can sign in and get some credit. THEN banquet until midnight, prolly..... let's hope i survive! if not, you guys can have my stuff..... whatever is worth taking....hehehehe
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| how to make an edie..... |
[05 Feb 2005|09:48pm] |
| How to make a sweetyapedie |
Ingredients:
3 parts mercy
3 parts silliness
5 parts energy |
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Serve with a slice of emotion and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
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| unusual dreams make for interesting nights |
[31 Jan 2005|05:42pm] |
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lately, i've been having really random, but interestingly enough very entertaining dreams. a couple nights ago, i dreampt that i was some sort of superhero with the ability to know if certain people were shapeshifters or not. it was like an action/adventure/fantasy dream, i was working with a group of people... there was a head boss dude, who had a whole team of people working under him, this little girl who was very special to the operation, and some hot guy ( like really fuckin hot) that played my love interest. we were supposed to protect the little girl, and there was this villain, i think she was trying to kill her. oh and the way i exercized my powers? i clapped my hands together and some weird energy flowed from them, like electricity or something....anyways, in the end, we blew up this building and killed the villain, but couldn't find the little girl or the hot guy.... change scene.... we are in the CM apts (wtf?) having a celebration because we defeated the madwoman, but are very sad because we don't know where the other two are.... suddenly, the little girl appears out of nowhere, and everyone rejoices but me.... because, well, the guy is still missing.... so i go out onto the balcony, with my head resting in the palm of my hand, like those damsels in distress do in fairytales and what not, and lo and behold, guess who shows up, far off into the distance, smiling at me.... sigh....he was by far the hottest man i've ever dreampt of... he had wavy brown hair and light blue eyes.... though i don't think i'eve ever seen anyone like him in reality... interesting.
the next dream i don't remember quite so much of, except that i was involved with rider strong? he was a very lonely and depressed man, even though in my dream he was really hot to me. i don't find him attractive at all, but in my dream, whoa, hotness. man, if only i could have this much action in real life.
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| why wednesdays suck ass |
[26 Jan 2005|02:45pm] |
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reason number one: this is the second time i've written this post, because for some reason livejournal decided it wanted to be temperamental with me today and not put up my post.
reason number two: i work at 7 am.... until 12 in the afternoon.
reason number three: i have yucky calculus at 3:30, and a computer lab from 7-9 pm.
reason number four: as i left for work this morning, mother nature decided to be a bitch and it rained the whole time i trudged my way. when i arrived, the downpour stopped abruptly. i had no umbrella.
reason number five: bleeding profusely from your crotch is both uncomfortable in many ways as well as painful.
reason number six: we were short one person at work today, so i had to do all the prep work. it took twice the time as usual to set things up, and had a certain person showed up at work this morning, we wouldn't have had such a problem.
reason number seven: the reason she did not show up for work? she said she had '' menstrual cramps'' and was not feeling well...... suck it up man! if i can go to work while i'm on my rag, so can you!
reason number eight: people are stupid. even worse, stupid customers. case in point, if you ask me what kind of bagels we carry, and i proceed to list them off for you, then you stare at me blankly, and then five minutes later ask me if we have an '' everything bagel'' even though it wasn't mentioned in the list.... then oh my god you deserve to be beaten over the head with the cast iron pan we have in the kitchen.
reason number nine: as i was chopping lettuce for the salad today, i decided it would be fun to chop the tip of my finger off as well. i guess it wasn't bad enough that i was already bleeding profusely elsewhere... i am going to have anemia soon.
reason number ten: adding to the stupid customers bit, some dickhead asked if he could pay ten cents for three, yes THREE cookies. no, you retard!go away and stop bothering me!
reason number eleven: when i left for work finally, my sweatshirt was still damp. halfway to the apartment, i realized that i had lost an earring. it just so happens that it was my favorite set.
reason number twelve: i have a fucking midterm to study for tomorrow that i am dreading. curse you to hell, accounting 111B.
the end.
(unfortunately, it's only 3 pm and it's far from it.)
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| hooray for christmas parties! |
[04 Dec 2004|01:52pm] |
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yay, so the christmas party turned out to be quite fun! i am happy that even though it seemed like we didn't have much entertainment ( damn nick for not bringing his X box so we could play DDR) it seemed like everyone was getting along and having a good time just chatting it up. i'm glad that even though we didn't have alcohol, it seemed like people were having a good time enjoying each others company and the food. ( don't get me wrong, i like alcohol too, but sometimes it's nice to NOT be intoxicated and remember everything that happened) =). i kept circling the apt, and observed many groups of people talking, amidst the christmas decorations and the christmas music in the background, and i started feeling all warm and fuzzy inside. teehee... i like parties. looking forward to easter when we can have barbecues and another easter egg hunt??? hehehehe....
thanks to everyone who brought food for the party, i really thought people weren't going to have enough to eat. but it turned out that we had lots of leftover chips and salsa and snacky stuff. you know who i thought were really frikkin cute? dan and seth! they totally hit it off, and i'm so glad. they have like, little crushes on each other now.... they stayed until like 2 am in the morning, and lauren looked like she was about to collapse from being so tired.
anyways, finals are upon us, ad i must study study study so i don't fail out of college. good luck people!
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| WTF !@&$%!?!! |
[26 Oct 2004|02:21pm] |
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okay, so granted, i don't update very often, even when something interesting does happen. WTF is up with bastard teachers who give shit midterms out. i failed, no surprise there. but i guess i have come to the point in my life where i feel so unmotivated. i'm finally 21, and after the sex drugs and alcohol, what else is there to look forward to? i feel so unaccomplished, and i'm only majoring in one thing, while others are majoring and minoring or double majoring or an assortment thereof. why can't i snap out of this funk?! i studied so frikkin hard for that test.... while i was sick mind you, and knew 7 out of the 11 questions. of all the questions that bastard puts on the test, of course he puts the ones i don't know. he could have been nice and put at least one easy question, but he had to be difficult. it wouldn't be so bad, if he wasn't so mean. and he's like nerdy mean, like, he was probably made fun of as a kid and needs to take revenge now or something.
in other news, frikkin thunder last night. the best way i can describe it is like being inside a whale. okay, maybe not really.... but it was loud and woke me up. blah.
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| best birthday ever! |
[24 Oct 2004|11:23am] |
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well, thanks to all of you who made my 21st birthday one that i will never forget. ping pong, four square, 99 bottles, spoons, and nancy outdoing me on the alcohol intake..... so much great stuff happened this weekend! btw, my arms are sore from all of you who punched me several times.... i have bruises now. i don't think i will ever forget nancy dancing and looking like she belonged in an ipod commercial. or how mario got hit in the head with a ping pong ball...or mel trying extremely hard to get that damn cherry out of her shirley temple. hehehe, awesome guys, you rock! thanks for two great days. it's all downhill from here though..... another 364 days until 22.... man i'm old!
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| so here's my yearly update |
[08 Aug 2004|09:46pm] |
since i don't update very often, i decided to grace you all with my presence. my summer has been going quite well, except for the freaking fact that i'm getting charged 52 dollars for housing shit. whatever. although it would have helped i guess if we cleaned more often. but even those of you who WERE less messy got charged a bunch. college housing sucks! did you know they are putting out ads trying to get people to live on campus? it has pictures of college kids hugging and laughing and quotes like "make lifelong friends," "lots of food in the dining hall, and no more dirty dishes!", "sleep in until classes start" and shit like that. guess they are losing a shitload of money.
work is good..... we play ping pong and poker. hehehehe. i gotta work on that poker face though.... i get too excited whenever i get a good hand and ppl know it. we also played soccer the other day and i made a goal! fun fun fun. i actually like my co workers, we get along great and even hang out from time to time. had a bonfire a couple weeks ago with them and drank and played frisbee. and right next to us there was an AA meeting going on..... hehehehe. i think we were being obnoxious drunks too.
went downtown today with cristina and bought a pair of dreamcatcher earrings at the cabrillo college music festival..... after buying a previous pair the day before. i need to stop spending money..... agh!
btw anyone receive their offer letter yet? i have yet to.
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| one midterm down, one more to go.... |
[17 May 2004|05:49pm] |
oh dear god i may have actually passed my precalc midterm.... could it be possible???? i fuckin hope so. =)
anyways, i haven't updated in forever.... since the beginning of the quarter and it's already almost over! but whatever, ideas from the mind of edie right? let's see....housing next year, i'm still very much undecided. we'll see though if i'll be staying on campus; i find out wed i think if i even get a spot. if not, i'll be here over the summer anyways to check out apts or houses.... anyone wanna live with me? =) i cook good food.....
went to go see troy this weekend... twice..... so many pretty people.... yummmmmm. hahahaha. but seriously, i never really thought eric bana was hot until this movie. and the facial hair works very nicely on the man. as for the women counterparts, how odd is it that the woman who was supposed to be the most beautiful ( helen) ended up being the least attractive? her and orlando bloom just needed to die.... DIE... thanks for starting a war guys. didn't think of that while you two were doing the horizontal monkey dance now did you?
can't wait for shrek two to come out... and even harry potter =) i know one person who can't wait, who keeps hyperventilating whenever she sees the trailer for it coughmelisacough. but it should be very interesting.
oh yeah, some old homeless dude farted in front of me this weekend too. that was the funniest thing that has ever happened to me this year. i just hope it doesn't happen again.
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